Misery Loves Company

New Year, New Rant.

2009-03-18T16:57:00.000-07:00

Three months into 2009 and I have the rant of a lifetime. Sort of.

I'm so freaking tired. Perhaps it is affecting my mood, because my hatred for certain people is twenty times worse than usual. I mean, what. The hell. Is her. Problem. Seriously. She needs to get her act together. Why? Because she doesn't care. Hang on, back up a moment, let me repeat that.

She. Doesn't. Care.

At all. She just... doesn't give a shit. She doesn't care about her appearance. She doesn't care what people's opinions are. She doesn't care about her schoolwork. What does she care about? Sex. Yup, she is a nymphomaniac. And that's it. She has the 'love of her life' to take care of her – why the hell should she do anything else? He's not her true love. She's in love with her lust. She's in lust with him – not in love. And she doesn't realize it. She doesn't want to realize it. She'd punch me in the face for even suggesting it.

She pisses me off. So much.

Oh, have I mentioned the pregnancy scares? She's freaking seventeen, for God's sake. But you know, she's thought she was pregnant tons of times. Disturbing? Yes. There are also certain things I never wanted to know about her. Such as where she's had sex. (I never want to set foot in her house again.) Or that her parents purchase her condoms. (The empty wrappers are on her bedroom floor.) Or that she has lube, and carries it around in her purse. (That His-And-Her stuff. Pink and blue bottles. You know what I'm talking about.) Oh, God forbid, actual details of her sex life with her boyfriend. (Complete with pictures and video! The only cost is your eyesight.)

Ha ha, yeah, okay, no.

What started this entire thing were the events of the other day. So we were standing there, in our corner in the morning, as usual when she starts screaming. I was talking to two of my friends at the time, but this simple action grew increasingly more difficult by the second, until we had halted our conversation completely, turned, and just stared at her. She was yelling at the girls – no... demanding – that they stop staring at our gay friends. Now think a moment: If you saw two males holding one another, wouldn't you stop and stare a bit? It doesn't matter what your personal orientation is, nor whether you're a homophone or not. You'd stare because guess what? You have these wonderful little things in you head that allow you to see. What're those again? Oh yeah. EYES. And while I was staring, she continued to scream at them.

And then my head met the wall. Numerous times.

I remember when she used to be clean. When she was thin. When she wore slightly less revealing, and matching, clothes. When she wasn't such a bitch. When she cared about school and life and everything else. When she was actually pretty cool to be around. I remember when she used to be my best friend. Sometimes I wonder what happened to that girl. I wonder when I lost her. And I wonder, constantly, whether or not it was inevitable that she would become was she is today. Something tells me it wasn't inevitable, even that I can get that girl back. But another part – the more logical part – tells me that there was nothing I could do about it. And that's the side I believe. It's too late. She's too far gone. I'll never see her again.

I miss her.

But time's passed. I've made new friends, made strong bonds even stronger. I'm surrounded now by people I love and would never trade away. Except for her. I'd give her up in a split second. No second thought. And it's alright. 'Cause I have my real friends now.

And I wouldn't give them up for the world.

...... Argh.

2008-11-02T16:45:00.000-08:00

Holy. Hell.

I am so. fucking. tired.

I got back from the West Virginia Theatre Conference today.

We performed an adaptation of Yellow Wallpaper.

I think we did an amazing job. And that costume manager was pretty awesome herself. [/narcissism]

Apparently, the judges didn't think so.

We didn't get to go on to SETC. (The South Eastern Theatre Conference in Birmingham, Alabama.)

But we did get best tech. <3

BLARGH. Ugh. I'm just so TIRED.

AND I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW.

God help me. DX

Do I have anything else to say?

... Not right now. Except for the fact that I feel bad for practically disappearing off the face of the planet.

I'll update soon. I swear.

dead

2008-08-14T17:32:00.001-07:00

So. The drama of senior year begins.

AND SCHOOL HASN'T STARTED UP YET. DX

Seriously. That pedophile needs to go die. Or something.

Happy August~!

2008-07-31T21:44:00.001-07:00

I finally started updating my LiveJournal. It says basically the same stuff as here, but meh.

Anyhoo.

Let's see.

Seriously, I have no idea what I'm gonna say.

Breaking Dawn comes out tomorrow. =D I'm going to a midnight release with mah friend. Yay!

And, what else... oh yeah. I'm going to Otakon~! I. CANNOT. WAIT. *bounces around excitedly* OTAKON-OTAKON-OTAKON!!!!

But ARGH. DX The new neighbours won't stop working on their cars!! It's like... 12:30 and they're STILL working on them! ALGHADKGHJADKLGHJKADH REVVING ENGINES. DX

Anyway. I wanna play Sims. DX But I can't. I'm trying to finish as much of this frikkin' fanfic as possible. *glares at sidebar*

I guess I'll get to working on that.

Can you say, "Father Reno?" >D

Crap~!

2008-07-20T16:35:00.000-07:00

July 20, 2008

7:36 P.M.: Shiiiit. Don't think I'm gonna make the deadline I set for myself. Can I churn out the rest of this story in the next... *checks time* ... five hours? I guess we'll find out!! *types like crazy*

8:30 P.M.: HOLY... Since when did it take an hour for me to shower?! DX I'll never make it at this rate!!

8:55 P.M.: Annnd there goes another twenty-five minutes procrastinating. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! DX

10:23 P.M.: NOT GONNA MAKE II~IIT!!! ;~;

July 21, 2008

12:19 A.M.: Fuck. Didn't make it. Whatever.

HAPPEH BIRTHDAY TO ME~ HAPPEH BIRTHDAY TO ME~ HAPPEH BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE~ HAPPEH BIRTHDAY TO ME~!!!!

Bleh

2008-07-18T22:34:00.000-07:00

Eh.

New layout.

I dun like it.

Wish I could code my own.

I can't.

Anyway. Birthday's in two days.

I'm almost legal.

Gotta wait another year for that, though.

As my birthday present to all of you...

Okay, the maybe like, one person that MAY read this.

Imma post a new two-shot.

Yes. The mother of all one shots. I'm going to try and finish it in the next two days.

Wish me luck.

Anyway. New icons. Learned some new techniques in PhotoShop. Woo~!

Wow. This got longer than I originally intended it to.

But, meh, I'm sorta talking to myself anyway. Sorta. Is anybody reading this? *tries to look at reader through screen*

Going to Dad's house in... uh... eight-ish hours or so.

I don't know what else to say! DX

So I guess I won't say anything, except, enjoy these two icons~!

(Pssst. Anyone else having problems logging into Photobucket? They said my password wasn't correct, when I know for a fact it is. Was I hacked? God, I hope not. I might cry if that happened. The only pictures I have left from Otakon 2007 after Laptop #2 crashed are on that account, and if they're gone... ;~;

Edit: Well shit. Lookit that. It's working again. WTF was wrong with it last night? Oo; )

Uhm... whoa

2008-07-11T15:09:00.000-07:00

....

Dualism updated Surgeon General's Warning.

Like, whoa.

o-o

WOOO!!

2008-07-08T15:29:00.000-07:00

Dear. Freaking. God.

I love this song. XD

So. Much. Fun. *falls over dead*

Anyway. Hm. Haven't updated in awhile. M'bored. XD; NINJA KITTEH~!

So, I'm housesitting with a friend. We're taking care of two dogs and a cat. (So cute >w<) I'll put pictures up of them once I get home.

Hm... Dunno what else to say. You here from FanFiction.net? If you are, then you're probably wondering why the hell I haven't updated Spectacular since God-knows-when.

That's because I'm writing a monster one-shot. And I hope it makes up for my random absences.

And trust me, this is the mother of all one-shots. At least... for me. XD;;

MONSTER STORY.

Just like Monster Dog.

Nikko's frikkin' HUGE o___o;;

Eh... moving on...

Huh, I don't really have anything else to say. XD; Gonna watch The Secret Life of the American Teenager tonight. It's so filled with angst and drama, but hey, it's kinda interesting.

But it's like, "Oh, let's have sex!" pretty much. Eh, oh well.

Geez, these people have Sakura Micron Pens everywhere. ;-; I need to get myself a bunch of Sakura Micron pens...

Whatever. I'm going. I think the dogs are running around upstairs and I need to make sure Steph hasn't done anything weird to my laptop. XD;;

Later.

La de da~

2008-04-04T18:51:00.000-07:00

So, I totally added a thing of links over there. *points to the right* It has links to all my fanfics.

They're all slash pairings, I'm warning you now.

I'll put up little descriptions of each here... later. As in, later, later. When a million different ideas are bouncing around my head.

Mwuaha

2008-03-25T22:59:00.000-07:00

I think I'm borderline obsession. XD

OMG OMG OMG OMG OOMMGG!!!!!

2008-03-16T19:29:00.001-07:00

*deep breath*

.... OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG CRISIS CORE LOOKS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD AND I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL IT COMES OUT EMILY I HOPE YOU'RE READING THIS HOW MUCH DO YOU WANT FOR MY SOUL 'CAUSE I WILL GIVE IT TO YOU IN ORDER TO BORROW YOUR PSP AND THAT GAME.

*gasps for breath*

O... kay... Now that that's.... out of my system...

BEST AMV EVUUUUURRRRRRR.

No, like seriously. o_______o Best. AMV. Ever.

EVVEERRRR.

MAKES ME CRY EVERYTIME. And I'm damn proud of that fact. XD

Okay... not much else right now. I'm okay now, I swear. I just had to get that outburst outta my head. And I'm fairly positive Tiff didn't wanna hear me scream it through IM. XD

Anyway. For your patience, you get a Cloud icon. I rather like this one.

Ta ta for now~

PS - Want a good Zack/Cloud fanfic? Read this: Tenacity

Borr~rred

2008-02-25T17:48:00.000-08:00

Gawd. I'm so bored I could cry.

But I'm not, 'cause that would be, like, pointless.

So, instead, I'll say this:

Have you ever heard Axel's voice actor?

Dude. His voice is like... Uber love. <3
Anyway.

I get to usher for theatre this Saturday. Yay.

Theatre.

That reminds me. I have two Chicago renderings due tomorrow.

Woo-freakin'-hoo.

But this weekend, I get to go over to Kupo's house for the first time in... forever.

I love her house. We get to walk around town and talk and go to the library. It's much cooler than my house out in the middle of... nowhere.

Which is convenient only when you're learning how to drive.

Yeah, fun stuff, stick shift it.

Anyway. I should probably get to editing Act Three.

That chapter was a gift from the devil. I swear to God. I hate it SO SO SO much.

But my voice actors are distracting me to the max.

Vic Mignogna is a freaking voice acting God.

Steve Blum is up there pretty high, too.

Quinton Flynn has a freaking awesome voice.

Steve Burton made me swoon.

David Gallagher = <3 (Only 'cause he does Riku's voice, of course. XD)

Liam O'Brien is pretty awesome, too, despite his freaky ass voice. (That's probably why I like it so much, though. XD)

Is it sad that I'm typing this all from memory?

I guess I know my voice actors. XD

I get to take my laptop to school Friday. I better change my background before then, though. XD; It'd be a little odd for me to have a background of Reno and Roxas so close together. (Even though Roxas is only poking fun at Reno... XD Where the hell's Axel?!)

Anyway, now I'm just taking up space. Bored yet? Stopped reading yet?

Writing this made me un-bored for about ten seconds.

As a gift for listening to this pointless rambling, you get two Tales of the Abyss icons. <3

Have fun now!

And remember everyone: CHICKEN FEET MAKE PRODIGIES!!! And safe sandwiches.

Ta ta for now~

Happy Holidays!

2007-12-28T23:22:00.001-08:00

Happy Holidays! Time for an update on mah life~ At 2:22 AM on Saturday, December 29, 2007. Quite possibly the final update for the year!

So.

I finished a Zemyx drabble. Go read it on fanfiction.net. (And if you're here from fanfiction.net, you better of read it! XD)

I got a tablet for Christmas~ Most definitely the coolest thing since sliced bread~ What else...

I GOT THE NEW LARUKU CD! EVERYBODY FANGIRL SQUEAL WITH ME!

*epic fangirl squeal*

projectHEART has begun~ Basically, it's a series of icons on all the Organization XIII members. When I post them all, I will make sure to give credit to all my resources, 'cause you know what? They fscking rock.

Anyway, the New Year is almost upon us. If I remember, I'll post the calendar I'm making, as well as projectHEART on January 1, 2008. As well as a Riku/Sora and an Axel/Roxas drabble. That Zexion/Demyx one was just too much fun to write. XD

I think I've bored you enough. Once more, for suffering through my obnoxious rants, here's two icons~ One's of Fay D. Flourite/Fai D. Flowright from Tsubasa, and the other is of HYDE from Laruku. I had to do it. His hair resembles mine so much in that PV, it's not funneh. XD Okay, so it is. Anyway, here's yo' icons! Enjoy! ^_^

By the way. The text on the Fai icon? Totally my handwriting. XD As well as those hearts on the HYDE one. Oh, and the scribbles on the edges were done by me as well. XDXD

So.

2007-11-19T15:49:00.000-08:00

So.

I dunno where to start. XD

I guess I'll start with "Happy Early Thanksgiving!" and state that I AM actually concocting some sort of deranged fanfiction in my mind, but I still have Nightfall to keep in mind.

Ugh, school starts. And my entire week looks like it's gonna be hell, too. My plans?

Wednesday: Hang around in the local WaldenBooks looking at "How to Draw Manga" books so I can practice my guys.
Thursday: Thanksgiving! Spending this at my grandmother's friend's house. Woo. Hoo.
Friday: Nothing... maybe.
Saturday: Go to my friend's house, see her in the ballet she's in, spend the night.
Sunday: Possibly go to my OTHER friend's house. Jeezus.
Monday: Return to school.

Yup, there you have it. Hell in a handbasket. Or... a random, small town that's barely a dot on the map. Whichever you prefer. The name itself is pretty dark. XD

Anyhoo, for bearing with me this long, you're rewarded with a lovely Riku icon I made. And maybe a Kairi one, despite my opposition to her.

La de DAAA!!! glass shatters

2007-10-23T13:35:00.000-07:00

Well, this week... sucked. I'm sick. *sniffle cough cough hack wheeze die*

If I was to sing right now, I think I would literally shatter glass. That's never fun. oO;

Anyway, I had a shred of an idea for a Sora/Riku pairing fanfic. But I'm kinda in a creative slump. T_T Can't think of ANYTHING. AT ALL. I'm trying to force myself through it.... but it's not working very well.

Yuki is calling... and I cannot answer!! *kicks her imagination* WORK DAMN YOU!!

Anyway, for suffering through this, you're rewarded with an Axel icon.

OOOMMMMGGGGG

2007-09-17T19:03:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

L'ARC~EN~CIEL IS BACK TOGETHER!!!

*spazzy fangirl moment*

A nifty little gadget!

2007-07-12T11:10:00.000-07:00

You know, you should totally call it XD

On second thought -- Don't. o.o

Countdown!!

2007-07-06T10:51:00.000-07:00

Addictions

2007-07-03T16:28:00.000-07:00

I've lost it. I am hopelessly addicted to this AMV and song. x_x

July

2007-07-01T18:21:00.000-07:00

Woohoo, it's July!!

ONLY TWENTY DAYS LEFT UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY!!! WOOHOO!!!

Brand New Breeze

2007-06-30T19:26:00.001-07:00

Yes, that is a song by Kanon XD

Anyhoo, two more icons!!

And an updated Jasper one! XD

Yes. Now to prattle on about my weekend!

Let's see, on Friday I went to my friend's pool party. The chlorine (Or whatever it was. It was freakin' NASTY!! x_o) killed my hair. I need to wash it soon. My other friend came over and spent the night last night as well. We were on her Gaia and I watched her RP. She's a fairly literate RP-er, which kind of surprised me. Which reminds me, I gotta drag that mattress out of my room...

More icon-ies~

2007-06-29T22:05:00.000-07:00

Woohoo!! More icons made by yours truly!!

Shoes -- Rewritten (Japser)

2007-06-29T21:45:00.000-07:00

Japser
OMG
Japser

What the hell is a Japser?
What the hell is a Japser?

Japser
Japser

-Don't ask, just look at my Jasper icon.

OMFG

2007-06-28T14:07:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG!!! I found tutorials for Photoshop online, and I've made some REALLY pretty avvies and a siggy!!! >w< Avvies

Siggy

More withdrawal

2007-06-26T17:24:00.000-07:00

Woohoo, more freakin' withdrawal.

EPISODE 15 IS NOT SUBBED YET. >_<

IS IT COMING OUT SOOOOOOON?! x_______x

Help me.

Somebody, SOMEWHERE, send me a subbed version of this anime!!!!

Two pickles and a wrap

2007-06-26T14:35:00.000-07:00

Woo! I'm about to watch La Corda d'Oro episodes 12 and 13~ <3

Ugh, summer school was hell today. People just wouldn't SHUT UP and they kept throwing stuff around the classroom >_<

Annoying girl wasn't there though. It made the rest almost good. ^w^

Hmm, what else...

Pickles are good? Oo;

Ano... Otakon's in a few weeks! *does happy dance*

La Corda d'Oro

2007-06-25T19:32:00.000-07:00

OMG.

I want volume five of La Corda d'Oro. Is it out yet? GRAWGH. >_<

I saw episode 11. Woohoo. x_x I wanna see tweeeellllvvve. x__x I will watch it... TOMORROW!!

... After summer school.

Oi, shower and bed, as usual.

Night, all!!

~*-^_^-*~

AIIIIIEEEEE!!! >w<

2007-06-25T15:47:00.000-07:00

OMG I'm so happy for my friend!!

(Damn her enthusiasm, it's rubbing off on me! XD)

She's going out with this guy that she's really like for awhile now. Apparently, he liked her too (Although you can't freakin' tell! HE SHOWS NO EMOTION!!! Oo;; )

Well, anyway, she went out with him Saturday. They went to the movies (Evan Almighty). She broke A LOT of the first date rules, but he didn't care, apparently.

And apparently he claimed her arm.

Just like my arm is soon probably going to legally belong to my other friend. oO

This is funny, though! XD

Friend that went on the date: he kinda scarred me cuz i said dont you want the rest of me too considering its kinda of you know attached he said no so i told him its mine its atteched and then he said something about forgetting the saw i was like O___O

And apparently he left his car running during summer school one day XD That's five hours and fifteen minutes!! OMG... he's got my seal of approval!!

Explanation

2007-06-25T11:00:00.000-07:00

The title says it all: This is an explanation towards what the link to this blog (http://lovely-penguins.blogspot.com) means!

So, after going back to school once I was done throwing up my brains (Nice, huh?) one day, I so graciously received the (oh-so-holy) special edition of New Moon. I was reading the special (and still oh-so-holy) first chapter of Eclipse during theatre class when I came across the line, "Penguins. Lovely." (Seriously, if you don't get this, GO READ THE BOOK!) Soon I was writing I am a [xXLovely.PenguinXx] on the back of my hand in the middle of class. And the link is simply derived from that! ^_^ Pretty simple, ne?

Hm, what else... I got home from summer school a little while ago. Woohoo. I have a 97% A. Go me!

Going swimming in a little while. T'is gonna be fun. Well, after I eat this delicious Ramen! <3

Aiii-yaaaah

2007-06-24T19:28:00.000-07:00

I just finished La Corda d'Oro episode 6.

OMG, I'm gonna be humming classical music in the shower XD

And I'm gonna re-read the series in the five minutes afterword before I go to sleep.

Nice, huh?

Random notes: I'm going to post an entire post in Japanese and another one in French one day XD

Shoes

2007-06-24T15:26:00.000-07:00

Shoes.
Oh my god.
Shoes.

Let's get some shoes.
Let's get some shoes.

Shoes.
Shoes.

These shoes rule.
These shoes suck.
These shoes rule.
These shoes SUCK.

Shoes.
Shoes.

Let's party.

These shoes are three hundred dollars.
These shoes are three hundred dollars.
These shoes are three hundred fucking dollars.
Let's GET THEM! ^_^

(Note: Lyrics may be inaccurate. So sue me. x_o)

A New Day, A New Entry

2007-06-24T11:18:00.000-07:00

Upon the... "kindly" insistence of my friend Tiffany ("Ambrosia"), I have remembered to update today!

So, what's happened so far today... Dad woke me up around 11-ish. I got up, and went to see Shrek 3. Then I came back here and here I sit. My day's been so boring XD

I'm gonna watch the first episode of La Corda d'Oro soon. I can't wait. I love the manga and I am DYING to see the anime.

Speaking of DYING...

My friend needs to get online so she can tell me about her date last night!!! >_<

Oh yeah, Tiffany and I are going to attempt to get ourselves published. It's another odd plan of mine, don't ask. I dunno how far we're really going to get in doing this, but we're gonna try our best! (Well, I am. That means you better too, Tiff!)

I got summer school tomorrow. Midterms come out. Woohoo. >>

Well, I suppose that's all I have to say right now. I'll probably have some random urge to write something else later. ^_^; Au revoir!

Withdrawal

2007-06-23T18:12:00.000-07:00

I just finished La Corda d'Oro Volume 4 and I'm going through MAJOR withdrawal.

Help me x_x

There's an anime for it... right?

New Blog

2007-06-23T11:41:00.000-07:00

Woohoo, I got a Blog~

Let's see how often I update this thing, eh?

Well, let's see, a little about me...

My name is [insert name here], I'm [insert age here], and I'm a big fan of anime, manga, and the book Twilight. Je parle un peu francais. (But I can't spell it.) I'm in the [insert grade here]. I go to [insert school here.] I'm not the best student. I'm a HUGE fan of the Fatal Frame series. I adore singing my heart out. I enjoy pretty much every type of music. (Except freakin' rap. >>) I also enjoy drawing and writing.

For my birthday, I get to go to Otakon, so tell me if you're going! I would LOVE to meet other anime and manga fans!

Well, I suppose that's all for now. Kinda boring, aren't I?